Painful epiphanies and hard to swallow truths
Thought you were my medicine
Then the medicine ran cold
They say as soon as the thoughts come
That you don’t think that you are sure
Then it’s time to move on
So I’ve got to let you go now
Before I waste my youth
Voices whispering “don’t wait”
My voice in my head said “no change”
My heart … wants to hold on
But god, what does she know?
I’ve been blinded in a black whole
Just following your light
Following it so much
I forgot I had mine
Mine.
what a foreign concept
Just two weeks ago I thought I had it
Then you went slipping right out of it
So I guess I had to take control
But let me tell you
Begging takes its tole
Took some excruciating moments to realise
Wishing and praying
won’t make you play that role
Why didn’t we talk about it?
Why didn’t we say?
Guess you don’t know what you want
Until reality
is in place
Trying to do the mental math
Trying to make it make sense
I think I gained a lover
But have seemed to lost my best friend
I used to think I was gifted an Angel
But can’t remember the last time we made sense
Where did you go?
I guess I’ll never know.
The guy that I’m falling for
Doesn’t even exist so
It’s a painful epiphany
Something I’m only starting to conceive
I don’t think you lied to me
I just didn’t love myself enough
to see